Tuesday, December 28, 2004













likom

where to start??

i was supposed to go out shopping with my kazens when suddenly my mommy drag me balik kampung.it was a long story on why she didn't made her mind earlier....and so,we went balik kampung...with my brother driving for the first time to perak and all of us the rest.the reason we had to balik kampung was bkoz, her cousin who was actually her anak angkat,abang haris... (it's a bit complicated but that's what it was, kalau tak caya ker nak tahu keterangan lanjut korang tanya mama aku).so,sampai sampai mimang best...makanan menanti kitorang..aku dan abang dan nanim, ape lagi...makan sakan..bukan makan lagi dah ...kitorang melantak...hihiihihih...siap ngan gulai tempoyak..nyam nyam..so,sepatutnya balik petang tu gak, tapi disebabkan ada pulak lah yang suruh tunggu sampai malam, tgk bersanding (sbb ptg tu kitorang terlepas diorang bersanding)so, kitorang tggu.tetiber, babah call, ckp yg dia tak bagi abang travel memalam camtu, so dia suruh kitorang stay semalam kat rumah tok syed (my grandaddy).maser nak g nengok bersanding malam tu, kitorang tak der baju dah...sehelai sepinggang jek...mama and nikki jek yg bawak baju banyak skit..so, kitorang pun pakailah baju cap borrow..iaitu bondariah collection..nasib baiklah nenek aku tu size tak besar...nak dijadikan cerita, malam tu aku tido dgn t-shirt baggy tok pon(nenek) dan kain batik dia...tak penah penah pakai kain batik...hihihihi...seronok gak...besok nya we should bertolak earlier but mak teh pulak gatal g ajak g lumut..abih tu, dah alang-alang kat situ...g lah lumut.bukannya ader aper pun...desa pandan lagi besar!
petang tu nak balik, tok syed pulak suruh tggu makan....maner buleh...dah lah prgm aku ngan kazens aku ditolak ketepi, ni nak suruh stay gak lagi...nasib baik tok pun kasi pakai panty baru dia..lawa gak panty tu,kaler putih, siap ade lace lagi..hihihi..so, kitorang pun makan lah..tapi makan cucur makteh jek..tggu diorang masak nasi lamer....lepas makan-makan salam-salam, kitorang pun pulang lah ke kuala lumpur...

tapi ader satu lagi kisah menarik dalam cerita diatas...maser g bersanding malam tu, ader gaklah makcik sedara aku tu sound yg malam tu diorang ader bwk life band (band kampung jek)perform...aku pun kira suker lah gak..ader music ni...maser sampai rumah tu, aku nengok dari jauh ader joget lambak!kira orait lah..ingat kan nak join samer...tetiber aku terperasan yg ader macam tak kene jek...macam ader pompuan pompuan yg joget tu macam semcam....g tgk dekat dekat...ya allah!!mak nyah...mak nyah berjoget ngan mat rempit kampung!!!!korang bygkan...maser tu aku dah nganga dah..hihihiii...geli siut...aku yg tukang tgk pun geli...tak jadi aku nak join..geli ah...ader yg cakap diorang tu biler siang keje tarik kelapa sawit...malam malam bertukar perkerjaan....n diorang tu dibawa oleh band yg perform tu,konon konon nak memeriahkan lagi majlis lah...hihiihihih

and this sunday, me and kazens are going out for shopping...help elly to find sumthing for her prom night...oh and malam ni ader bola...indon lawan malaysia...khalid jam pasti yang termacho!
:p

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

baby i luv u

besok nikki g singapore...siri rangkaian promotion PGL.
tinggal lah aku ngan adik beradik aku yg lain...

lately, i've been too lazy for everything, i've been lazy for work, i've been lazy for my artwork, i've been lazy for my guitar lesson, i've been lazy to meet my friends, and i've been lazy to go out on a date! he asked me out, but i was too lazy to get myself ready, instead, i spent the whole evening watching tv with nanim.nanim was always there for me ya'know.ye lah, katil sebelah sebelah...

the other day i watched big fish with her and she ended up sleeping through half way. big fish made me feel good after watching it.although he died, but it was not sad at all...unlike romeo and juliet, which i always cry everytime i watch it.

so, about this guy fren of mine, who were asking me out, well, he was a fren to a gud fren of mine.he was nice.i dunno.i'm just too lazy to think...cam ner nak masuk mmu ni??dah malas sangat.

ader sorang kawan tu dulu cakap,"kita tak boleh malas kalau nak buat artwork.kena rajin cari tutorial kat internet". dia cakap tu after i admit at him that i was too lazy to find tutorials. hmmm....

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

i saw mommy kissing santa clause

krismas dah dekat...raya dah nak abis...aku, boring dah bekerja...raser macam nak berenti jek..tapi intake aku tu lamer lagi..kalau menganggur, cam ner aku nak mencari sesuap nasi..betul tak?

raihan dah balik from egypt..cute nyer dia..rase nak kunyah kunyah jek...baik dia tu, asik nak senyum jek...nanti aku letak gambar yg aku ambik kat airport..

nena dah kawin..elize dah dapat anak...fatiyah dah bertunang...ayu and deej pulak baru brake up dgn boyprens diorang...aku???aper ader???hihihihih...sajer jek tu..

so, try to masuk contest sony handycam challenge...kalau dapat attend ceremony tu pun jadiklah...first timer...

sakit kaki ni..crimson wave lagi.perempuan.


us with uncle pat at emas 10...show dia mimang mantap

Monday, November 29, 2004

hardy's goin to mmu soon...but not nizam...and me, the june intake is out and i'm applying that. korang sumer yg mengenali diri ini, doakanlah supaya aku dapat masuk saner.nanti aku dah jadi graphic designer yg berjaya dengan company sendiri yg bernama ARTrianax.studio nanti, aku mesti kirimkan kad raya kat korang. :p

A very hectic weekend

well, it all started on Friday night, Tiara's open house. thank God i didn't drive.but still, get back late night and boy, i was tired. wake up the next morning at 7 to fetch my uncle whom studied at egypt for 3 years long...he got married there and have a cute adorable baby. then, had a small doa selamat at mak teh's at 3 or so. around 4.30,went to setiawangsa to fetch shima and went ahead to kak lup's for her open house.the laksa was yum yum...met everyone there...even my primary school mate,darwin. then after that, sent shima home and went back to mak teh's and ahead we went to muara ikan bakar at port klang for dinner and it was 10.30 when we started to eat.pegi lambat pun....mak teh belanja and yum yum...menjilat jari..reached home around one. and terus pengsan on bed.

the next day, sunday, 28th nov, read a msg from kak lup at 8am saying that her grandmother past away.innalillah...went to her house and i saw the jenazah. before that went to shima's to pick her up.i had to attend a wedding receiption that noon but my mom made it a point when she said i should accompany kak lup to the funeral..and shima agreed.so, i've made a few phone calls and went to the funeral...takziah to kak lup, as she losing again her beloved sumone.it was at puchong.after zohor, we went to puchong and because of the heavy rain, we only reached there around 3.it was still raining when the funeral took place. and i only reached kl at 5...sent kak lup home, pick sarah up (for the wedding),pick my sis and bro at home, sent them to mak teh's, sent shima home, pick ira at her place and it was jam at jln ampang and cheras.we only reached nena's (the bride) around 7.30...

makan-makan, took pictures, borak-borak....dah pukul 9 lebih....mintak diri and sampai rumah pukul 10 lebih and tukar pyjama, berus gigi, cuci muka, tgk the appreantice sekejap, pukul 12 baru masuk tidor....dan hari ni, i decided not to go to work because i was so so tired...so tired.

and now, my bro and his little cousin tgh having sum kind of wwf fight and i'm yelling at them while writing this down...maybe another cuti tomorrow??

Monday, November 22, 2004

Gambar RAYA!!!
























....there goes the gambar raya.....kalau nak tengok lagi banyak, check out ita's blog!

DELIFRANCE

went to ampang point just now.and walking around with no purpose with nanim.bumped into maksu bobo (cute kan namer maksu) and the kids....then, maksu tanyer, "parking kat maner?", i was like,"hah?kat maner ah nim?" then i said parking kat linda onn...maksu cakap,"jln dengan maksu kat sini, maksu pun nak pegi that way, kat pizza hut," and we say "bye".
sambil jln tu, dengan bangga sekali sebab dapat beli delifrance with 20% off...rupenyer, menurut kater nanim, bakeries ni kalau nak tutup kedai malam malam, mimang slalu jual roti murah, nak habiskan...ader yg kasi 50%....so sambil jln tu, kereta banyak, bertali arus, tak kasi kitorang melintas...so i was like,"kereta" say it over and over again dengan mengikut irama sendiri and nanim was like,"mari oh mari.....dekat hamba..."singing that lagu from p.ramlee punyer cerita hang tuah, alah scene yg maser dia jumper dengan cucu tok guru kat bukit tu...tetiber ader mamat ni jalan kat depan kitorang...he must have heard of or little humming...nasib baik mamat ni macam perut buncit skit...dan memakai baju yg agak ketat.heheheheheh....
the end.

Thursday, November 04, 2004

somebody save me

why lately ive bumped into him?it was merely pathetic on one way side but on the other way, i could see the future of us, we have no future together.i mean, his like my junior! there u go..i said it out loud here...

sure, i always stick to this philosophy that "i came, i saw, i conquere" but why bother to conquere sumthing that have no heart at all...i did what a girl had to do and that's it.no more.

i did sum survey on the mp3 players in town...the ipod is like way too expensive, out of my reach,rm1390 if i'm not mistaken.so, there's this brand which i'm not familiar with but like the tauke said to me when i asked wat's the different between the hip and happening cool brand and the unknown one,"macam keleta lah, moi...mercedes manyak bagus punye..tapi ploton pun bule jalan juga,bukan ka?" he asked me back. he was right..i'm like desperate to have a mp3 that i dun care about the brand now.but the other month, abb brought his sister's mp3 player at work, and it's a bit kopak...i mean, dah rosak skit...still can here songs but u have to adjust it sum more..that's the risk lah..went to carrefour and there's a computer shop sell an mp3 player with 128mb for rm190.i consider it cheap.forget the brand lah pulak.but it looks solid.

so, as i was lookin for sum more brand, my mom terjumper this quilt bed sheet there and like it and she bought not one, not two, but 4...and i like it and i bought one pink quilt bed sheet and nanim saw it and she like it too and she bought herself one.so, there goes my allowance baju raya.tak pakai sumer only suku but still.

talking about baju raya, up till now, i couldn't find my casual baju raya lagi.i have a baju kurung and memang dah adat, i must have at least 3 baju casual...but tak dapat cari...tak jumper yg okay..kalau beli pun tapi macam ott,just to please myself that i have a baju raya, buat aper kan.so, my mom said,"ur wardrobe pun tak abis pakai, tak payah lah beli" and she's right.so, i kene buat keje skit, i have to swim down the wardrobe and take out baju yg tak penah pakai...and mix and match.

orite then.i'm gonna do it right away.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Al-Fatihah

sepupu kak lup, whom studied at CICT wit us, whom was our senior, past away 3 or 2 days ago..i knew him, but i didn't talk to him, i knew him from afar as kak lup told me that he was her cousin...she really felt the lost i guess.he involved in car accident.kak lup always talk to me about him...

it makes me realize that life's too short to take any advantages.it's like u never realize it until sumone near to u, close to u went away forever...

i'm not regretted that i did my best.it's like when u love sumone, just say it there, out loud, otherwise the moment will pass u by...i did stick to that.when sumone u loved die, then u know how regretted u are for not telling them.

sure, berat bahu memikul, berat lagi mata memandang....

make right judgement about things around u because we don't have forever..say sumthing nice to ur loved ones...dun yelled at them, dun hit them, dun even say that u hate them, forgive them even if its hurt, cause when they gone, u'll cry just for it.

to kak lup and family, takziah from me.
semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat allah.
amin.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

new skin

what ya think of my new blog skin?
lovely?boring?cute? tell me, tell me...

thanx ita for the website...

anyways, i always wanted to go to a play or theatre or sum sort of that...and i always wanna go to istana budaya...and so i did...last month.
i went to see Emas 10..it was a contemporary + artistic dance...pat was one of the choreographer and boy he can dance! i mean he is truly talented..what else he can't do? i wonder....

i'm planning to breakfast with my college mates next week on 31st october.thinking of nelayan titiwangsa restaurant when nisha called one night and suggested at asam pedas at setiawangsa...
"its cheaper," and so she pujuk me...just like usual, kitorang mimang sentiasa broke...hihihihi...but still, nak buka puasa sesamer...so, i said why not.

uh, and i went to jpn this morning at 9am.i took the number and thank god that i went to iras after that...about an hour kat rumah ira, my number tak panggil lagi...kalau tak pegi rumah ira, mimang jadi batu duduk situ.
so, about half an hour later, my number's up, and dia buat aper ntah, and suruh letak my both thumb on that small device and dia pun cakap,"pegi counter 9, ambik gambar"...makcik tu baiklah jugak, ye lah despite of bulan puasa, orang pulak ramai, ingatkan diorang moody ker..maser tunggu dia buat aper ntah, i asked her,"kak, i/c lamer tu bule simpan ker?"
"tak..kitorang ambik...buat aper nak simpan?kan dapat baru nanti"
i was like senyum jek...makcik tu tak tau yg aku ni menyimpan harta karun...macam macam mende ader dalam memory box aku ... daripada aku punyer nametag pengawas sekolah rendah, sampailah sekolah menengah, cenderamata gathering pengawas sepanjang lima tahun kat puterijaya, sumer ader...journal aku , jgn citer lah...masuk yg aku tgh pakai tu, ader 6 journal aku simpan....so, that i/c lamer really mean sumthing to me...and i really wish to keep it.tak per, i think of sumthing so i can keep my old i/c.

and yesterday, he was right in front of my car...i was behind his car lah...that was so ironic situation i tell ya...dia tak perasan kot.he was smiling and laughing with his mates...

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

buckingham palace

it was just a title...written on my bag right in front of me..

so, anyways, welcome back bulan ramadhan al-mubarak.
insya-allah, umur panjang, dapatlah beraya.

heard that he hook up back with her...what do i care right? i dunno...i guess, i do care???errghhh...ntah lah..macam menyampah pun ader..he told me they broke up and what she's doing there? i'm not suppose to ask him, he's history.got to clear this thing from my mind right away....zzzzhhhhhuuuusssss....

there.

the muet test is only next week, i know that wary dun even study...bkoz i know i don't...it's like we wanna get better results but we dun study...what the heck?i guess, things just not in the right time.but i'm just gonna give my best shot.

the commercial nikki just did last week is for this raya....it's telekom and it's gonna be really fun and cute.watch for it ppl.maybe in a week time, it would be on tv.

i wanna write a poem, but i forgot how to arrange the words...somebody pls help me?


21 Things

i'm back with a whole new perspective towards something.and i guess it was okay to be different than anyone else..to not have what everybody has.

so, i meant to write the 21 things-about-me-list somewhere around my birthday but i was busy.here goes....

1.almost everyone thought i'm a boy bkoz of my first name.the ironic thing is it actually means a woman or a wife in arabic
2.i have so many monikers that sometimes i forgot that i used them before.
3.pink is my theme colour
4.i luv vanilla flavour...be it as flavor of ice-cream,candies or scent from perfume...
5.i'm not really an animal lover...esp cats.
6.i broke my arms when i was 8 or 9...
7.i luv writing.
8.when i was 4 or 5, i almost drown in a hotel pool.
9.sad movies made me cry...i never fail to cry.
10.i would give everything if i can meet josh hartnett and claire danes.
11.if i have a long leg and slim figure, i would be a catwalk model.
12.i luv to sing in the bathroom...it's like my mini studio... :)
13.at the moment i only know one song to play with the guitar.
14.every weekend i went to klcc park for a jog.
15.i had a guy friend whom waited for me until he gave up after we've done high skool!
16.there were so many times that my name being publish in local newspaper and magazines.
17.my dream job would be something that have to do with creativity and not a 9 to 5 job.
18.i could sleep anywhere, anytime, if i'm so sleepy.
19.i luv books,gadgets & technology and details on clothes.
20.i collect rings, bracelets, bags, shoes and other accessories.
21.if i could choose one place to have a beautiful holiday, i wud choose bali!

Thursday, September 30, 2004

so i said i'm gonna be off for a few days.it hasn't been an hour yet that i'm comin back...writing.

went to ita's daily jumble, she wrote and just have to accept that life is a very loOoOng journey filled with different types of experiences and emotions. all i can do now is view the past positively, release all the bitter and miserable feelings and then only i can move resolutely forward

i know about her....and why she wrote it...but what bout me?why i'm so touched by that..why i can relate to it?just because of that stupid call and that i knew it had never started.it was so silly of me.i thought i wanna be the new generation girl, whom do the opposites.but still, it was a stupid mistakes which i shouldn't do at the first place!!!!!

at the moment i think life is unfair.
so, i'll be in my sactuary, just to be alone.


Alone

i'm gonna be off for a few days. i just wanna be alone.at the moment i feel so angry, my hands were shaky.i almost cried over sumthing that i thought i had.that are not true.

so, msg me if anything urgent.

i'm just gonna be around.u know where to find me.

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

I Graduated!

finally ppl...finally.....after 3 years of penat and lelah...of copying assignments from nizam, reza,kak siti, my girls, and sesiaper yg turut terlibat, akhirnya, i got my own diploma...hihiih...not exactly lah..sajer je buat gimik...adelah tiru tapi tak banyak, maner yg tahap tak buleh diselamatkan lagi tu, terpaksa lah ketuk rumah diorang, mintak assigment, tukar skit coding, wallah! mcm lecturer tak perasan yeh..i know diorang tau kitorang buat cam tu, tapi mesti diorang pun tak larat nak ckp aper, sbb mesti maser zmn diorang pun, diorang buat cam tu gak.so, fair and square lah.

so, i really wanna post my graduation pictures but i always forget to save it in my disket bkoz all the photos are in my thumb drive and i dun have internet connection at home so i have to go to cc to surf the internet and just that, that most of the cc i went are using windows 98.. and my thumb drive can't do any 98 thingy.so, later lah ye ppl..

one thing that i regretted most maser graduate ari tu was we dun take class picture!!geram sangat. i mean all of us, about 40 plus student, with our graduation gown and mohktar board, standing, looking so proud wit the scroll in our hands, hugging, smiling at the camera lense.sampai skrang i can't accept the fact that we dun have class pictures.walhal maser waiting for perarakan masuk tu, got many times what.tapi i dun bring my 'brand-new' phone so i couldn't call my sister to come wit the cameras and i didn't think pulak pinjam telepon kengkawan lain to do that...ishh...

yg lain tu ok, and except that maser time my geng naik pentas, ader a few thing yg tak patut dimaafkan.diorang buleh tersalah sebut namer...nasib baik my name was correct, if not i graduated as a chinese or sumone else, bkoz lydia got a chinese name and nisha was nurul shima...that was totally unfair.kesian diorang. mesti ader sesaper yg dengki tu....

anyways, it has been a week since the convocation day and i've been blessed to get that diploma and to know such wonderful friends all along the journey.sum were bad, sum were good, sum were silly,sum were excellent, sum were arrogant, sum were friendly, sum so quite and sum so loud, but trully, they were all special and unique in their own way.and why all of the sudden i'm going melodramatic here? i dunno....my hands just type out the words that come straight from my heart...hihihii....melodramatic again.

.CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL DSK4 STUDENTS,CLASS OF 2004,CICT.

Saturday, September 18, 2004

teng teng teng teng

so, i went to the rehearsel and it was exciting....the moment they gave me the jubah. i was like finally.

everybody i knew was there....my girls, wary,abb,ustad,nizam,reza,max,teh,the chinese girls,rafidah ang the gang (tak sempat nak jumper),and kak siti's gang.

then, after we took the jubah and all, me and the rest went to mines for lunch.after that sempat lah pulak si abb and wary masuk karaoke box....never seen that before at kl shopping malls but i've seen it somewhere at cheras mall....so, kitorang pun berempit lah masuk that box and 1 buck per song....it was hillarious that i did a duet wit abb..we sang lagu sayang menyayang by jamal and sarah...hahahahha...my voice was like trembling..after that shima and wary sang senja nan merah by ziana and awie.. (yeah, the choice of songs were pretty lame but they dun have english songs lah..)wary can really sing i tell ya....the pitching, the high and low key,just perfect.

after that, we went to upm balik and rehears.
then we went back home, but me and abby melencong pulak ke bkt bintang...makan lagi...patutlah gemuk!hihihihi.....

and nasib baik maser nak balik i sempat jumper man...it was months and months after our practical days and after dat he went wit no words....even he didn't up date his blog....i was like excited lagi..finally.jumper jugak mamat tu.wary sampai luper namer dia..hihhihhi.and now we gonna graduate together, his college his fracis upm too so, we're lucky.

ok lah...that's it...nak pergi beli tudung for convo...uh, btw, ade ker ustad cakap i'm dancing like cocok langit....tak patut betul.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

umi kalsom

convocation is just around the corner...next tuesday to be exact. gabra jugak...so, sesiaper yg baca post ni, jemputlah datang ke upm on that day..mine is on petang session...kiter ramaikan lagi upm tu.

project kat tns tak braper banyak sgt, so they remain me,shima,ustad and sai....but i heard tomorrow diorang nak panggil abb...hopefully.

so, what else is new? nikk's already appear on the big screen...ive watched it 5 times already.not bkoz my bro in it, but bkoz of the movie itself...it's like vanilla ice-cream, u kept on craving for sum more after a bowl full of it.know wat i mean?

uh, and i got myself a camera phone..alas people, alas.....that phone is like my little walking diary lah....it's sony ericsson...and i also bought myself sylvia plath only novel, the bell jar...it's like when ur working, u got almost everything that u always want at the end of the month...next item is, make-up at M.A.C and a mp3 player....

so, this thursday, we have rehearsel for the convocation...wary already call, ajak pegi sesamer....
and i'm gonna meet ana at upm for muse cassette..remind me that or she'll be freakin out.

and i'm not satisfied wit last week malaysian idol result.i adore nikki's voice and suddenly she's out of the game.what the tut?! vick should balik kampung, or maybe saiful....but nikki??and now i can't hear she sings anymore....i'm so so so dissapointed..it makes me sick that i thought of not watching m.idol anymore.

while i'm cooling down myself, i wanna tell the whole wide world that sam's real name is umi kalsom!!!

Monday, August 30, 2004

the premiere

the premiere went well...grand,glamarous,beautiful.
it started with a small party at the petronas mpo where the host, zaini ahmad, introduced the main actors in pgl. they make their way down the stairs...and the mc announced nikki's name correctly, after pronounced wrongly pronounced it at the rehearsal.

it's like all celebraties in malaysia were there...from singers such as ning baizura,sheila majid,anuar zain (my mom said he was there, i tak nampak pun dia...darn!),vince,siti nurhaliza,sharifah aini to actors like hani mohsin, kavita sidhu, hans isaac, janet khoo to directors like u-wei, yusup aslam (hihihihihi),yuhang to designer which i only saw tom abang saufi (y tiara dun invite my mak teh eh?) to others celebraties like raja bahrin, normala samsudin, azwan and aznil and many more...

after the agung arrived, all the guests were being brought to tgv to watch the premiere. i was in hall 2 with my dad and my mom was in hall 1 with nikki and the vips.for the first time i watched a movie with siti nurhaliza! no kidding. vince even smiled at me (like i care..hihihi).

and for the second time also, i cried....yup i did...

so, the plan is to watch the movie this weekend with my cousins...
and to watch it again with my maksu.
and maybe to watch it again with friends...aiyooo...

uh, btw, check out the latest HYPE! magazine...see who's in there...hiihihihiih.

Sunday, August 15, 2004

what else?

i should have been at PWTC by now for the tribute to Kirana fashion show...i should have been at the back stage by now, helping my mak teh with her show.but i got asthma instead and chose to stay at home...
mama and nanim are there at the moment, with their designer label baju kurung.nvm...maybe there's next time for me.

i haven't study yet for my MUET this november...i got no time to do so...my part time job has required a lot of my day time.i dun really mind because i make money from it.i'll figure out later when i'm going to study for MUET.

so, what else is new?

shaari msg me a few hours ago...asking how i'm doing and telling me to come to ira's convocation so that we can meet there...i said that i'm not promising anything but i try to come...ira is my best friend..how can i miss her convocation ceremony right...it's on sunday.mine is not until next month...i really can't wait for it.

i met aishah ansari the other day...it was our first time of meeting after all these years...we watched wicker park..aishah look like chinese! hihihi...she's nice....really hope to hang out with her again.

so, i'll better go to catch the malaysian idol.uh, btw, i voted for nikki and rydee....jac...well, she got lots of people to support her..she dun really need me at the moment..hihihi

Saturday, August 14, 2004

dancing queen

i just watched dari studio 1 with siti nurhaliza....
well, she's a gud singer...come with a package...anyway, i dun wanna talk bout her here...
i wanna talk bout her guitar player, sham, i think...terer giler...he played the bass for lagu 'ingin mencintai dan dicintai'.then he played the guitar kapor and he played the guitar biasa.

wahh..i mean wahh...i dunno when i'm gonna start play the guitar..

uh, btw, i have a date tomorrow!

convocation time!!!

so, went to ira's convo this evening and boy it was great...i was working actually...until 2.30pm and i took the putra and got to kl central to take the komuter and stop at serdang station...there, fathanah (or lately known as ana..hihihi) picked me up with aj and the boys in another car. so, we made our way to uitm shah alam.

we bought ira a bouquet of flowers and met her half an hour later somewhere around the big crowd...took pictures with her and the others and later saari came...actually i saw him twice while i was waiting for ira but i was like buat bodoh macam tak nampak dia...tak nak lah tegur dia dulu...so....hihihihihih...

then, he came and ira said "hey, arim...saari lah"
i was like,"oh..hey...." and he was like,"hi"
and can u believe it that he asked me to take pictures with him...i was like "hell-o"..but wat the heck...ira was like "go lah..go" with that silly grin on her face while she was holding the camera...anyway, talking bout camera, naz's camera was like the one that i always wanted the whole time...he said it cost him rm1050...but it's not digital camera..i mean nowadays everyone has to go digital in order to be affective in everything u do..i'm so in luv wit his camera that i cud actually hide it somewhere while he's not watching.hihihihihih..silly me.

so, what else..i got to know that adam muhamad subarkah has a fiance'..congrats..and her name is ARIMBA!hah! why so close one?

nikki's klcc premiere is on this wednesday, 25th august.i'm gonna be there as the crew..cool huh!

ana was so nice that she dropped me at midvalley after the convo...lamer tak jumper dia...

aj was so nice towards the boys that she....so nice towards the boys.

ira was like so happy that she cudn't stop smiling...but i know she's tired...

p/s:i luv my frens!

U WONT BELIEVE IF I TELL YOU THAT

SOFEA JANE TUMPANG MY CAR TO GO BACK TO TOWN FROM ANGKASAPURI...AND I DROVE THE CAR!!!!!!!!!!!

i know...i know...i got lotsa things to say...but first thing first...
nikki had his live debut appearance on national tv last wednesday, on selamat pagi malaysia.it was him, adlin and sofea.tarmimi sigara (betul ker?) yang mengacara hari tu.so, to cut things short, after the show, sofea asked my mom if she could get a ride to anyway, so that we could drop her somewhere and she would phone her driver to pick her up...and so she did.
like the amateur driver i've always been, i missed the turn to kl and i did a big circle instead to kl.babah dah tunjuk jalan balik from angkasapuri to kl but i missed the turn, sofea said so "u missed the turn"
and i said "yeah,i did..."
it's not like i gabra ke aper ker...i was cool and steady...but mimang i fail skit bab jalan jalan ni.so, instead of sofea following us to great eastern, the clock tick fast and she had to buy cake for her daughter's bday so that her daughter could celebrate at skool, i dropped her at klcc as we were passing there.so, there u go...kalau tak disebabkan nikki tak buat movie ni, tak adenyer kak sofea nak tumpang kitorang...hihihihi..

to aishah and anyone who is curious about nikki's promo scheduele, below is the date:
17/8/2004: International press conference at MOKL - 7.00pm till 9.00pm
18/8/2004:Guest at Selamat Pagi Malaysia - 8.30am till 9.00am
18/8/2004:Guest at Chit Chat Azwan Ali - 2.30pm till 3.00pm
25/8/2004:Premiere with Agong at TGV KLCC - 7.00pm
31/8/2004:Premiere with Sultan Johor in Johor - n/a
31/8/2004:Promotion in Melaka - n/a

so, there u go.....i'll update the dates later..... in the meantime, say this out loud "LIFE IS WONDERFUL!!!"

Sunday, August 08, 2004

Nikki on tv!

so, i just watch the long PGL trailer and it got nikki in it!
just so that u guys won't miss it, glued urself in front the tv tomorrow at about 8.50 or so, after My News Network...sekejap jek but still!

can't wait to see it on big screen.

meanwhile, i'm in the verge of asking him out...it's not like i've never done it before, plenty of it! and never being turn down...but this one is like a bit difficult..i dunno why but i just didn't have the guts lagi.maybe i will some time soon.

uh, by the way, patty died...a month ago...nikki was so sad..he almost cried...at first he didn't believe that patty died and abang double check and true,no more patty.nikki then made a drawing of patty with it's angel wings...the drawing was so beautiful and sad at the same time...

My Nick Naufal - the Raja Ahmad

so, okay....like most of malaysian know by now, Puteri Gunung Ledang is coming to cinema this 31st August.the thing is, my little bro....cutie nick naufal (i called him that...only me called him that..no one else) is one of the main cast...he played the little prince Raja Ahmad.

yeah, i went to all the shooting location and boy, it was fun. it was tiring though but it was fun too. and he, like himself, steady jek...hhihihihihi...and now, his poster is on the billboard at Jln Travers near KL Central...go...tgklah billboard tu...besar...and today, his on the Berita Minggu-Bintang Popular..satu page tu!
i dunno lah....he's gonna be famous...

so, anyway, back to PGL..trust me when i said it's the best malaysian movie i've ever seen...well, i've seen it at finas the other day (no cetak rompak one eh) so, the story line, the picture, the music score overall were satisfying. infact it was more than satisfying, it was the greatest so far.

well, speak no more.
wait till 31st august, and u know what i'm talking about.


Sunday, July 25, 2004

what the tut?

it's like everyone is crazy over the so called reality tv show - akademi fantasia.
everyone expect everybody to watch it and have the same lame stupid interest as theirs. the other day, my office mate asked me which of the so called akademi student that i like. i was like "as if!"

and there was the other time when i went to great eastern mall, and i sat on a bench and there came a nenek with her cucu.she smiled at me and i smiled back and talked a bit. and then when i wanna go, i said, "makcik, saya balik dulu lah ye"
and she replied,"owh, nak tgk orang nyanyi nyanyi tu ye?"
i was like,"nyanyi nyanyi? kat maner?"
she replied,"kat tv tu...pukul 8.30 malam"
i was like,"owh..."

i mean come on lah malaysian...wake up and smell the hot coffee lah. as i can see, those so called student have no talent watsoever, they bullshit all the time, and cried when they were voted out. that was nonsense.

i did watch it the other, just to know what is actually that AF has that makes everyone go demam over it. i watch the episode where edlin (or whatever the spelling is) been voted out. she sang like euuuhhhhh...and when she's been voted out, all the so called student cried..and there this guy who was crying like a girl and his friends try to console him. and he pulled this stupid drama when edlin say ta ta at him. i mean that was bullshit.big time.

and people go crazy over this, wasting their money just to vote for those untalented so called student.

baik tengok malaysian idol lah wey!!!

Thursday, July 22, 2004

TNS

roughly, at TNS got 4 part timer from KTC....all my classmate one...but technically, it's just me....
ustad masuk kerja pagi tadi, but he had to wait until 1st august to resign at his previous work place and start working back at TNS.
lydia, she's got a permanent job at cosway..this is her last week with me at TNS
and tomorrow, shima is coming for her first day at TNS...
abb was suppose to start working too but that miang zaid prefer some perempuan as his assisstant over a guy. padan muka dia that that perempuan bertudung litup and not like he imagine with sexy body and outfit..

Asmaradana

Cinta adalah suci lahir dari jiwa
Menikam sanubari hati dalam lara
Cinta mistik abadi ikatkan selamanya
Musim berganti hari
Wajah takkan lupa

Berukir berlari
Kemuncak destinasi murni

Asmaradana
Asmaradana
Kemuncak cinta
Asmaradana
Asmaradana

Cinta suci tak kenal harta atau rupa
Dari darjat puteri raja hingga hamba
Biar api membara jadi penghalangnya
Biar ternoktah demi keagungan cinta

Bersama berdua
Kemuncak cinta di dunia

 

Friday, July 16, 2004

Petty the pet

i haven't mentioned to u guys that we had a pet.
 
the name is petty and it's a baby turtle. nikki gave the name and we don't even know if petty is a male or female..so. 
i wanna show u how petty looks like but the blog server got jam at the moment...so, i'll show it later.
 

  
 

Friday, July 09, 2004

tell me why???POR QUE???!!

here is the thing...i am too lazy to update this blog's layout.i go to work at 9,went home at 6.pm at least..if not it will be until 7 or 7.30...of course felt tired lah.

weekend pun sumtimes i have to go to work...so, maner ader time..kalaulah ita membaca bende ni skrang...pls lah...mintak tolong editkan...nanti kak arim kasik credit lah..hihihh...ita punyer blog cun siut!!

so, what else is new?
hmm, azim is here for his semester break i think...enjoy your holiday cuz.and there's been so much murder cases here and there,malaysia is like not safe anymore??why ask me??ask them who did the crime.

how can i walk outside alone again?takut lah.tak pasal pasal kang kene kidnap, kalau kene kidnap jek pastu selamat alhamdulillah jugak, ni kang ader yg kene rogol, kene bunuh lagi....astaghar. mengucap banyak-banyak.can an angel protect me from those so-called-human being?

next....well, i'm goin to college this monday due to some problem arise.stupid management....stupid staff who didn't do their work at all..well, if they did, how can this problem arise...anyway, i'm looking forward to hear the explanation by those stupid management...bloody fool!!hahahhhaha...

ab,ustad,ira and aj were like,"harim, u got more job eh at your place?" i was like,"wait eh, nanti ader i tell u guys lah...patients my luv, patients...."(termasuk dialog gollum lah pulak)it's like everyone is looking for a job now, esp that we've complete our diploma....not to worry guys,if i got one, i tell u ok.

so, that guy at my work place really piss me off. he was like hovering over me with his stupid grins.i really wanna say "eat your ass up dude!" to him.maybe he was just being nice but i hate it.

be back soon.

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

so, i got 3.750 for this semester.so these are the list of ppl that i have to say thanx to for my unbelivable result.

1.mohamad reza syahzan bin onn- for monitoring me through out the project and i have to say that if it's not for him, i might not get the 3.750 pointer.

2.lubna binti othman- for being such a great friend a girl could ever ask for.

3.mohamad zuazwary bin zulkifli- now i know that u are a funny guy.it was great knowing u up close and personal.walaupun ko suker menghilangkan diri maser practical dulu, dapat jugak 3.750.

4.en asri- kerana memberikan markah 39/40 kepada aku yang tak secerdik maner ni..en asri baik hati...aku datang lambat dengan lup pun dia tak kisah, wary hilang pun dia tak ambik pot.

5.pie- kerana menjaga aku dan member practical lain dengan baik..skrang pie dengan sally jek yg tinggal kat opis with en asri.nanti biler biler senang aku datang melawat korang.

6.en zaini - (almost forgotten his name) kerana sentiasa memberikan komen komen yg membangunkan semangat kitorang untuk membuat projek sehingga yang terbaik

7.mereka mereka yg terlibat secara langsung atau tidak....terima kasih..tidak luper kepada pihak upm jabatan sains komputer kerana menambahkan markah ke 3.750

so, that was it...can u believe it...3.750...

so, wat else..hmm, owh yeh, went to cheer 2004 last sunday. it was great..shirtlift mimang patut menang.great dance routine. sabian finish at 16th place, i went there to support sabian. they did well just that luck was not at their side.

and maksu gave birth to tengku mae tijani last week. she was so cute that i cud eat her up!hihihihih..

and i guess that's it.


Sunday, June 06, 2004

hahhahhah...i have to laugh first before i type it down...

okay..here goes.
skrang ni i got a part time job at TNS with ira.mcm aritu, part time jugak,but for two weeks only,but this one part timer as data entry clerk.

so,the story is like this,maser buat part time yg first tu, i notice there's this cute guy working there as well.ira knew it too and she said go talk to him.i said laterlah.tick tock tick tock,keje dah siap and i pun tak sempat nak talk to him.

so,i was like, "alah,kalau ader rezeki i'm gonna see him jugak".and i was rite when my maksu called me and tell me that i got the job for the data entry clerk there. so i went there on friday, last friday, my first day keje lah.but,maser tu i tak kisah pun about him, i was like,"woowwhh..susahnyer keje nie.."
i mean the data entry thing is not data entry bodoh bodoh...it's like, u have to be really careful with it or u'll screw it.

so, where was i?yeah...the tak kisah thing..so,i pun buat ler keje keje tu dgn kusyuk skali.i think he was around on my first day bt i tak perasan sgt. btw, maser my last day keje for that 2 weeks, he was bout to go to other department.so,dia dah trasferlah tu.

so,yesterday, i went to office, and he arrived bout an hour later.dia dtg maybe nak tolong si zaini tu kot.i sat beside zaini and he sat beside me! i mean talk bout miracle!and he just sat there, doing his work and sumtimes talking to that zaini guy, and i asked that zaini guy things yg i tak paham,and he talked again to that zaini guy and so on. later, that ptg, he was like on his phone playing game, still sitting next to me..and suddenly he said to me,"kak,namer akak aper?" kahkahkahkahkahkhkahkahkhakhakkakhkahk...tapi maser tu i tak gelak.i was in disbelief.terribly shock! i was like "akak???"
i said,"harim"

he went,"hah, halim?"

i said,"no u deaf!!!(tak lah, i tak ckp cam tu, although i slalu nak ckp cam tu kt org yg tanyer "hah,halim?")no, it's harim.y u called me akak"

he went,"umur braper?"

i said,"21"

he went,"i'm 20"

i said,"yeah...but still, 21 is not that old"

he went,"it's still 21"

i said,"not that old!"

he went,"ok..kwn akak tu tak dtg ker? (refering tu ira)

i said,"no..dia tak der...u dun have to call me akak??"

he went,"ok..sori sori.."

and tak lamer lepas tu,i asked him,"u are 20 as in born in 84?"
he said,"yeah"

so, tu lah citernyer...but he was nice..this is like the first time i had my crush called me kakak...and since that conversation which took place yesterday, i only see him as sumone cute and nice. never again as my crush...hiihihihhi..

the end.

Thursday, May 27, 2004

ashriq called last nite.
it was sweet of him to go find my number through other frens...
well, at least i think he's sweet.

wat else, been planning to watch sundal the movie but always being shut with things.

anyway, the bee dees sale is tomorrow and we're like looking forward for it, i mean me and nanim...so, for those of you who are bee dees member, come and join us tomorrow at isetan klcc.

uh, did i say ashriq was sweet??

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

I notice that I curse a lot here. nuff said.

So, anyways, my weekend was bloody boring. Saturday was yawning day and Sunday was even worse. Only during 3 pm or so, I manage to sit myself in front of the pc and watched Blow Dry. I’m not the vcd type person. I only watched movies at the cinema and that just it. I dun repeat it at home. So, it was interesting…Blow Dry I mean.

One more thing….I oso dun scribble all things here,so for that, to sum particular ppl out there, dun ever think that you know me well eh! Well, actually, I set up this blog for my eyes and those unknown cyber geekers out there only…it was an accident when that bloody reza got to know it (yeah..yeah..i said u bloody mate…not that I mean it but I just luv the word…bloody. U not mad eh?) I dun know how he got the add. And I said, “uh well..what the heck” so, wat to do?

To quote from B: you luv to seek challenge and you see getting to know that person is a challenge. I gez she’s absolutely damn right. Well, as for a starter, I flirt all the time. Jes this morning, I flirt with that cute guy at the nasi lemak stall…I found it fun and I think flirting is healthy.

So, anyways, where was I? yeah…that quote…so, in the meantime, it’s like for the past few months, I’ve been flirting with this guy at college. The thing is, I went to college wit sum frens the other week and he was there and we were in the library and he was a few tables away opposites mine and we were like flirting wit each other. It was gud. And last nite, I saw him again.

and now, i'm like waiting for the mega sale....where the heck is it???
well, blogspot cool!!!
the layout and skin dah tukar...impressing...kan ita kan...kan aishah kan....

So, the reason I didn’t write in for such a freakin long time is bkoz, I went for a part time job at Menara TA near KLCC. Maksu work there so it’s easy for me to get in. it was less than 2 weeks job and who cares…as long as I made money through the whole week. The job was nuthin, I had to put newsletter and point statement and booklet or they called it as diaries, etc, in an envelope and that’s it.

And now I’m back doin nuthin, except picking up my siblings from skools and so on.

i’ve been talking to maksu’s friend and if possible he’s gonna help me to get another part time job there. And if I didn’t make it, maybe I’m gonna try at abby’s place. I just want a stupid and simple job just for the sake of pocket money before I further my study in December.

Well, yeah..babah give me back my weekly allowance but I just wanna work my butt out. I want to earn money. So, I really appreacite it if u guys can recommend me to any place in KL that can help me to do so.

Btw, have u guys listen to Miyavi? He’s a Japanese singer…a rock singer…his song called Onpu No Tegami is like The Reason for Hoobastank. Try to listen to it.

Saturday, May 08, 2004

ader ke patut aku kene saman aritu...dekat maluri...polis tu bagus je tunggu kat bus stop casaria. shit happens!!!!! damn cops!!!

mimang nasib tak baik aritu. i dunno how much would it be but babah gonna pay for it...ye lah..i'm jobless at the moment.

i thought the red light was for those car yg nak go straight n for us who wanna turn left main agaklah...aku pun masuklah kiri maser lampu merah tup tup...polis tu tahan aku.tak guner betul.abih lah point aku.

menyampah betul lah

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

so, jes finish the speaking-muet. it went ok lah...wary did well too and lin too..i mean although they dun really talk english, but they did their best.and that's wat that count ite?

neweys, been tryin to rite shit in here but i was not in the mood. i had to finish up nicky's folio and it took me a lot of time. i mean how can 8 years old skool boy done that..it was a hell.

i'm in college lab at the momet...got about 6 more minutes before they close up for lunch.darn! gonna leave college forever soon. i saw him here..at the cafeteria, the lab, the library, the class, the hall, the office. it was sumthin that i couldn't forget. i saw my crush...and now we are like frens. isn't it amazing. a high achievement i might say. :)

met ita and elly last week at rumah wan. talk a lot. ita dah jadi IT girl. she spent hours on the phone wit me jes to ask things..on how to edit her blog. it was fun actually doin that. she's a fast learner. maybe we'll meet again during raya....

so, my time is up...that brother wanna throw me out..macam lab bapak dia..berlagak sungguh!

.Libras.A Perfect Circle.

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

i dun know wat drags me to do wat i did just now....finally i called him up..yeah...i did...and up till now, i cudn't believe it....
he said yeah we can be frens..and i said cool..and we messaging each other afterward..it's not that bad actually...

it's like finally guys...i said i wanted to be frens wit him and now i got it.
i'm the happiest girl at the moment...

Monday, April 12, 2004

so....i'm 21...
too bad that i dun feel well on that day but i still went out to celebrate it anyway.
it's weird that when i was at home, i got lots of this shit on my mind that i wanna say out loud here but now when i'm in front of this pc, those things gone...and now i'm lost wit words.
i swear that i wanna tell sum thing to u guys...

anyways, i am still searching for jobs...esp if they are in the writing field...i sent in my resume to the star but no replies watsoever...and there's a job for news presenter at ntv7 and i thought of applying for that but thinkin back that the place is like so far away from kl and that mama might not let me drive there alone, i hold again my dream.
besides, i dun think i'm in the right place and at the right time and at the right age....i'm still young and those news presenters are like in their late 20's or maybe 30 and above...

i've talked to dikna and she told me a bit or two bout this guy that i like.
the digit that i had is his.....and i know his other nick name..and i know his full name....gosh, so i sound like a stalker sumtime? n i hav this massive idea that i wud call him up and tell him that i wanna be fren but when i think it back alone, that might sound a bit scary...i dunno....arrrghhhhh...this is hard...when does being fren is hard?? tell me....i remember back in kindergarten, it was so easy making frens....and now it's like hell, esp if that person u wanna be fren wit is in the opposite sex.

anyways, being 21 is not that bad...i still can get up late from bed on weekends and i still can tease my little bro...and i still can be lazy at cooking and i jes still can do stuff that i did before i turned 21.
that's cool!

Tuesday, April 06, 2004

last nite i had a high fever..i was shaking and it was really cold..i had to put on a sweater and 2 sheets of blanket...woke up at 11 and i swallowed 2 panadols...awake again at 2 in the morning...couldn't sleep bkoz my body was really panas i tell ya..then sleep again, and woke up again at 3.15 till 3.30...i swallowed sum more panadols...dunno how many were there...i just had to go to sleep and i did.
woke up again at 6 sumthin and i found myself sweating...like i just took a shower or sumthin..but the fever gone.still, i felt a bit dizzy..and now i feel like the fever gonna attack me sum more.

was plan to donate my blood at SAB this monin but the fever pull me off, plus, mi mama and mi hermano asked me not to..sayin things that scares me...sayin dat the needle is not clean..yadda..yadda..bla bla bla...and shit.
so, i decided not to..wat a cowerd!

still goin to the office, had to finish up the report...maybe until tomorrow.
not planning anything yet...i just want to see wat faith will bring me...malas sum more!

the kids at college are havin a blastful semester break..2 months break!!
feel a bit solemn bkoz that is how long i'm not gonna be able to see that dude who steal my heart away.sumtimes, when i think bout it sum more, i found myself in a place called the "pathetic zone"..i am so pathetic that i oso found myself as imbecile as i could think of.

i feel a bit chilly rite now..maybe the fever is haunting me again.

Friday, April 02, 2004

so, watever comes tomorrow, i think i could go through it.
today is my last day here..in the office..been spending my 4 months time here..practical, the system, the work, bernama...jab penerangan malaysia...frens..miss them..

my lecturers just came for the presentation.
it was like hell, wit en.rahiwan around..i mean i dun mind if he WANTED TO TAG ALONG (how pathetic is that sound), but wat's wit the attitude?? pardon me..
watever bull-shit they were yapping about this mornin, i know that we have do the best to get here today..for the presentation. although most of the work was done by reza, but we did our part..shits and stuff. i hope that count. of course it counts...rite?

neweys,
ira called this mornin...we were just yappin and yappin and yappin bout ol' times..kak intan gonna be married to her fiance' this sunday. and ira told me dat she might not goin bkoz she has to baby-sit her baby cuz, bkoz her auntie was too lazy to do so..but she got paid for it lah...
we talk bout her practical work, last time, at angkasapuri and the old staff there didn't really take this new generation
ideas...they said they wanna stick the idea to kebudayaan and shit..no wonder rtm is so lame, like "hell-o!", "wake up and smell the coffee!!!"
so, she said she dun wanna work as a graphic designer...too bad..i wish i have a diploma in it so dat i could start my work as a graphic designer soon. all this while i thought she enjoyed studyin in that field...she's an excellent artist i tell ya..her drawings are gud.
we talked about an hour or so...glad that she called...i jes miss her i guess.

*my only luv sprung from my only hate, too early seen unknown and known too late*

Wednesday, March 31, 2004

so, it's 31st March already and i've come close to leave the title as a college student. not that i feel sorry or sad or nethin...just that i know how much fun it is to have study in that college...to have called a student. that sort of fun when u always complained bout that tons of assignments and project that had to be ready at the end of the week....and all.

i luv being a student.
i really do...it help me to learn a lot about the world. to help me learn bout wat is friendship for and to help me find wat i'm lukin for..i'm gonna continue my study though...but like i said, the next intake is only on march next year...so, got to do sumthin in between.

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lately, i feel a bit sad, gloomy feeling i might say, weak gestures, sympathy luk and all...i would just sit on my bed and stare at the naked wall for sumtime and cry for nuthin maybe thinkin that my life is not as perfect as sumone out there. this feeling come and go...i used to feel it frequently last time..but i dun do prozac like sum might have done it...i jes let the feeling conquere myself. i'm not depress, am i? and i keep on listening to those damn melancholy songs. i can't help it.

at times i jes wanna sleep. i used to sleep for a long time and had this wonderful dreams...and when i woke up..the wonderful dreams gone...then, i try to get my head on my pillow and try to close my eyes as tightly as i can but the sounds from the outside world wouldn't allow me. when night came, i turn of the light and i try to hum a beautiful melody which god-knows-where it came from...and i did sleep...and i dreamt about that wonderful dreams again...

i dunno..maybe it's jes me. my body is tired and my feeling is bruising from watever it had to confront before. i'm clueless and i need times and i want to find things in my life...i jes need times...i dun wanna feel sad...i wanna be happy like you.

i want what i want.

Monday, March 29, 2004

Hoobastank:The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Friday, March 26, 2004

one week more...
and i'm leaving the office :)
i'm leaving the title as a college student :(
and i'm leaving the college *unsure*
and i would be on my way to hold on a diploma in computer science :D
been planning out for things ahead...wanna continue my study in degree and do a major..hiramman said that i should continue my studies in computer stuff and mama suggest that too..

but i'm not goin to spent another 3 years or so with coding and stuff..that stuff just not meant for me.
so, i was thinkin to take creative multimedia..that's the only way for me to stay put in this so called IT world.so, settle....but got one big problem, wat i'm gonna do in the meantime..the intake would only be next year on March, which mean i hav a year doin nuthin..
dun wanna work as a programmer...

then,this monin my problem solve again...there's an ad in the star, looking for sub-editors.
but another problem arise, the sub-editors would have to work at their HQ in peejay..mama wouldn't let me go that far..arghhh..i'm sick and tired actually,thinkin the whole thing.

maybe i can act dat i just dun care XD ...i'm gonna try to apply for the job first, see if i got it and if i do, i'm gonna rebel my way to peejay.
terrina once said,grab any chance in front of me as i'm not studyin in mass com watsoever. so, i guess this is the time..
bulk on my seat belt and here i come.




Tuesday, March 23, 2004

wat am i?dense?
i've talk to man this evening n i feel a bit ok after that.

lady_capullete: woit
lady_capullete: sihat?
man: hey wassup?
man: ok
lady_capullete: i'm not gud
man: why?
lady_capullete: frustrated lah
lady_capullete: bkoz there's sumthin tak accomplish lagi
man: project?
lady_capullete: no...
lady_capullete: not bout project or watsoever
lady_capullete: jest bout this thingy...
man: that is?
lady_capullete: mmm
lady_capullete: there's this guy
lady_capullete: malu ah
lady_capullete: malas ah citer kat ko
man: oooo..guy thing ahhh...
lady_capullete: tu lah
lady_capullete: guy thing
man: nvm
lady_capullete: tu ah
lady_capullete: tadi aku nampak kete dia
lady_capullete: tadi g college
lady_capullete: namapak kete jek...ngan member dia sorang
man: n i get it
lady_capullete: i should have go at him n talk
lady_capullete: betul tak?
man: with agurl rite?
lady_capullete: i should hav done dat
lady_capullete: no...
lady_capullete: tak penah nampak dia wit a gerl
lady_capullete: plus gang dia tak hang out ngan girls kat college
man: takpe ada peluang lagi
lady_capullete: it's always them , the boys
lady_capullete: peluang amender
lady_capullete: aku nak blah dah dari college
lady_capullete: frustrated sangat
man: phone nom?email?
lady_capullete: ader..member aku tolong aku...ambikkan phone number dia..
lady_capullete: aku penah miss call dulu, pastu dia call balik...aku tak angkat
lady_capullete: stupid tak aku?
man: owh...nope...
lady_capullete: aper?
man: semua pun buat camtu...
lady_capullete: tu lah...
lady_capullete: banyak kali aper jumper dia kat college
lady_capullete: but i jest dun hav the guts
lady_capullete: n now i'm listening to my immortal wit frustration
lady_capullete: damn!
man: one of my US pal had da same prob with ya...
man: and...
lady_capullete: n?
man: last2 dia dah ok ngan guy tu...
man: with help of
man: his friend..
lady_capullete: owh?
man: take kwn2 lelaki dia yg ko rapat ke?
lady_capullete: i wish things would be easier for me
man: takde...
lady_capullete: takder
lady_capullete: diorang tu junior aku lah
man: ic ic
lady_capullete: tapi aku ader junior high skool yg satu klas wit him
lady_capullete: fadillah
lady_capullete: she's ok
lady_capullete: but i dun wanna let her know
lady_capullete: malu ah
lady_capullete: tapi i dun think fadillah rapat ngan gang mamat ni
man: ada peluang jumpa lagi tak ngan guy tu?rasa2 nya...
lady_capullete: it's like, i've been hoping n hoping that he would come n talk to me for the last few years but he didn't..n i'm just too shy
lady_capullete: i dun think so
man: use "lubna" ......n tell him..
lady_capullete: hahhahha
lady_capullete: kak lub dah tau
lady_capullete: the first one to know bout my crush,..
man: ohh..
lady_capullete: tapi kak lub nak buat aper pun, go straight to him n tell him dat i like him...not her thingy
lady_capullete: but u know wat, i do hav a fren who do dat work
lady_capullete: the other day, he got this guy for our other fren...n they did end up as a couple,,tapi dah broke lah pulak
man: ya know ...one of my us pal told me that she love a guy on her n-borhood
lady_capullete: then?
man: but she too shy to tell him...
man: and she lost him..
man: but the interesting part is..
lady_capullete: wat?
man: the guy is josh hartnett cousin
man: really!!!
lady_capullete: get out of town!
lady_capullete: tipu lah
lady_capullete: OMG
lady_capullete: i luv joshy
lady_capullete: u know i luv him...
man: im serious la....
lady_capullete: really?
lady_capullete: biat betul
lady_capullete: biar betul
man: i can send u da story
lady_capullete: wat story?
lady_capullete: story ker?
lady_capullete: ingat kan reality
man: betol la.....
man: so..u better tell the guy...whut do u relly feel bout him
lady_capullete: ok..send me now
man: no matter whut
man: jap..
lady_capullete: ok
lady_capullete: ok for ur jap
man: lol
lady_capullete: so, u were sayin...
lady_capullete: ?
man: wait ahhh.
lady_capullete: sure
man: no matter whut
man: .u better tell the guy...whut do u relly feel bout him
lady_capullete: i can't
lady_capullete: i dun hav the guts
lady_capullete: n i'm too shy lah
man: u need to think that he is shy too...
lady_capullete: how come?
man: and he s waiting for u to make ur move
lady_capullete: well, i did make sum eye contact wit him
lady_capullete: but y can't guys do it first
lady_capullete: it's not fair
man: when it come to love ...
man: guy cant really speak out
lady_capullete: like u!
lady_capullete: :p
man: :D
man: not this time around..
lady_capullete: so, u were sayin...
man: if i find one..
man: i tell her straight
lady_capullete: ye lah tu
man: ;)
lady_capullete: so, u were sayin...
man: how about sending him a letter
lady_capullete: nah.....
lady_capullete: maybe not
lady_capullete: maybe i'm about to lose him
lady_capullete: n maybe he bout to lose me too
man: dont give up buddy...
man: dont b4 u try

lady_capullete: this friday ur dinner?
man: yup..
man: tak tau nak pakai apa..la...
lady_capullete: pakai cam superman jer
man: nak beli baju.....duit dah habis..
lady_capullete: pakai cam superman jer
lady_capullete: jimat kos
man: lol
man: but ..aku kena buat persembahan
lady_capullete: persembahan amender?
man: sing......."im gonna be the next american idol"
man: she bangs ..
lady_capullete: kahkahkhakhkha
lady_capullete: she bangs like that dude
lady_capullete: sure i'm gonna laugh u off the stage
man: oh...dorang dah pi rehersal...
man: aku tak pegi2 jugak
lady_capullete: nak pegi dah ker?
man: aku tak pegi..
lady_capullete: owh...ingat kan ko nak blah dah
man: konon profesionnal
lady_capullete: ye lah...ko mimang cam tu
man: nope..b4 i give u da story
lady_capullete: kasi lah skang
man: tgh cari...
man: anyway...im gonna say it again
lady_capullete: ok
lady_capullete: wat?
man: "dont giv eup...on ur guy"
lady_capullete: u know, dat phrase, did make me smile...
lady_capullete: thanx
man: ohh really?
man: terharu nya
man: :)
lady_capullete: yup


Monday, March 15, 2004

so, yesterday i had foot cramped....just bkoz i walked at the mall non stop. went out wit nanim and aira and we did those gurls thing..ya'know, the shopping thing etc. after that, my mom asked me to company her to megamall...i just can't say no. and when i got home, i was tired...the shoe that i just bought from vincci was a waste. it cost me half the usual price but i just can't seem to walk in it all day long. so, i was thinkin to sell it to anyone. anyone?

i only wore it once....yesterday, as soon as i pay for it.
*crossing fingers*
*pls,buy..i'll give gud price*
*shoe description=size 7, style:pointed shoe with a cute ribbon on top, no heels, nude color*

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if my sistah ever read this, she would go knockin on my head says "why u still thinkin bout that jerk?!"
i guess this is the melancholy side of me...always holdin to the past...always thinkin that my past is all that i have. amy said that everyone has their own sad stories and i guess she's right. she's absolutely right.
nuff said.
*pondering*

Saturday, March 13, 2004

last day at the office for man and zita.... wish u luck guys...

Thursday, March 11, 2004

so these are sum of the pix that i've promised to post on, that i thought might luk gud on web.

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

hafiz amran passed away last night. he was in icu,coma...
hit and run accident...everyone misses him so much, my sis said he was funny, always the one wit witty jokes, another fren said the one that he skipped classes with...

wen frens died, they'll be miss, they'll stay in our memories as our life has to go on.that's why there's a say said that dun take advantage on ur frens...as u might not know wen u gonna lose them. so far, i've no experience of having sumone close to me died...my sis in the other hand had. last year, 2 of her frens died..one of them was the one she describe as best fren. he was young, he was full of energy..he made my sis happy and he made her cried too...i used to hate him but not anymore...i regretted that i refused to get to know him as he was.
now dat he's gone, we went to his grave once in a while...sayin prayers for him and stuff.

i dunno wat i'm gonna do if i had to face such situation...my sis is a rebellious, she can be so stubborn at times..but the day arwah raimy past away, she stumbled and broke down.

look out the stars, they shining down for you

Monday, March 08, 2004

yesterday we had bday lunch...abby baked a cake and we ate lunch at klcc. haikal was even there...my sis was there too. the cake was nice. i got bday presents...and they are cool. abby gav me this so called my style ring and bracelet and lyd gav me a pink butterfly pouch..and nisha got me flower. i had so much fun.
it was ijoy,me and lyd's bday lunch...although mine is not yet until april, well, it was perfect.
but that doesn't mean that i'm not goin to have a bday party on that day...we'll see.

so, i bought a book yesterday at kinokuniya...nineteen...a collaboration of women writer in asia. so far so gud.

the SAB carnival was ok. nanim incharge with the rumah hantu..i brought the kids along..but we only had half an hour there bkoz after that the whole family had to go to melaka for an engagement ceremony. it was boring i tell ya...

and right now i'm havin this sakit kaki and i tell ya it is so sakit one...
till then....all the best to all of u.





p/s:well, actually i wanted to put more pix but there's sumthin wrong wit geocities at the moment...
so, it'll be next time

Saturday, February 28, 2004

trianax+listen=Black Eyed Peas:Shut Up
trianax+feeling=craving for money!



this is the my third vector art.

today i'm goin out wit loop for the mega sale....we just luv sales!
we adore sales!

anyway, i miss my girls so much. haven't seen them for about a year or so...where are u guys? fatiyah is already engage and so i heard. ira is almost finishing her study..uh, she called me the other day...asking how was my date with him. i said it was okay.i can't remember since when i knew ira but she just the best fren a girl could ever ask for.
she was there for me when i was in a very messy condition.we were together in primary school, high school and until now we still called up each other just to say hey...she came over to my house and we have a little chat. i just luv her!

fiza, shah, deej, A.J, ayu, zimah (just to name a few).miss them so much.
but there's a fren of mine that i haven't heard for so long..no news or watsoever...where the heck are u nena? i heard that she already got married...well, that's wat they said..

but of all my frens, there's this guy that i can't seem to forget. although we broke up in a really harsh way and it really teared me down. i just wanna know where is he at the moment...wat he's being up to...how is he doin...i just wanna know. is he dating anyone...and most of all i just wanna know if he ever remember me at all, in any way. pathetic am i? see, i'm just melancholy in a way...maybe until i find a new guy, he would just stay a part of me. urghhh....i'm so pathetic. *looking down*
like wat my cous would say,"chill out"

and if i could be who you wanted,if i could be who you wanted all the time

Friday, February 27, 2004

trianax+listen=Elvis Costello:I Never Fall in Luv Again
trianax+feeling=not well, coughing all day long.


i just can't believe it that no one is at the office today except for kak lub and i...it is tremendously horrendous!
Warey and izman were here but warey disappear before lunch and the latter a few minutes after that. and it's pretty much boring with nuthing to do..thank gudness that the internet is workin...

aishah was on line and we chatted...it has been a while since i've seen her around. it's gud to see her. she said she just watch romeo and juliet and she know why i luv the movie so much...she said there just sumthin about it....i said that i'm a melancholy person myself but she said that maybe i am also a sanguine person ...she said that i'm a cheerful fella and i think maybe it's true...
but i was a melancholy person, i used to be that when that sad chapter of my life took over, but years past by and i managed to create a smile...i learn a lot and i just have to deal with things.

*smile upon the bright light in the office*
*huh?*
*whatever*
trianax+listen=The Crystal Method:Born Too Slow
trianax+feeling=dissapointed because i can't sneeze...feel like i'm gonna sneeze but i can't..darn!


i woke up at 9.15 this morning. me and kak lup had planned it last night that we only be in the office at 10. and we did.
i still feel that i had a fever, my body is a bit warm. i swallowed 2 capsules of panadol this morning and i think i'll just stick with it until i feel i really have to see my doctor.
lately i've been hoping into other people's blog site and i think that theirs are so cool and it makes me change mine three times in a row. first, it was a dark kinda gothic theme (blue,black,white) then after that was a kinda girlish and pinkish theme and now it's silver based color. *sigh*

anyways, yesterday, finally, i managed to force my a** to sit in front of the tv for the 8tv's the office.maybe just because david had fool himself in front of his colleague...wat a laugh i had...last night episode which was also the first episode for the second season showed the new boss arrival and they had this little welcome party at the office for the new boss. and david made these stupid jokes that no one laugh...and so, he did other jokes that had caught him in trouble. i laugh like i would blow my stomach! i never watched the office before...it was tremendously hillarious!

and after that, my all time fave 2D cartoon, Futurama....now i know Katey Sagal is the voice of Leela who happen to be the mother in 8 Simple Rules....i recognise the tone in 8 Simple Rules...
anyway, i have to watch The OC this weekend..a fren of mine wrote in his "temporary" blog that The OC resembled his family esp him and his bro...and Sal from painted-reality.net also said that The OC is great. i really gotta watch it,this weekend.

so, is it really me on coincidence watching 8tv's programmes or it's just 8tv is so cool and happening in town? but nomatter what i just love 8tv! 8tv is the bomb!

i'll write sum more later...waiting for izman to scan the pictures that i'm gonna put in this blog.
in the meantime, enjoy your life while it still last!

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

trianax+listen=Alanis M:Joining You
trianax+feeling=stone


last night my head ache,sakit woo...hangovers...i took 2 capsules of panadols. still when i wake up this morning, my head is still heavy as it was last night.
after breakfast today, i took another 2 capsules...and now i'm feeling sleepy.and it's gettin ok...but my nose is runny pulak and i was almost resting my head at my desk when shafiee came to my desk. sibuk je. nak suruh kitorang buat keje.... i mean, when it come to me and my flu, pls pls pls, dun ever disturb us. and i really mean it.
argghhhh!

wary got a new pc today just because en asri want his cpu....i dun know why..cause at the moment i dun care. it's just bout me and my runny nose.
i've told nanim bout my date wit saari, finally. she was cool...nuthin like "what?! u actually went on a date wit him??wat were u thinking?!!!" :)
i dun wan to tell everyone bout it but by posting it in this blog means i actually tell everybody,rite? *confuse*

anyways, he was okay.
we ate lunch and buy sum of his computer stuff. then, i told him that i have to go for my driving class when actually i dun. hahhaha...hey, dun blame me..i was having a massive headache and i dun wanna cancel the date for the third time. so, a girl had to do wat she had to do
:p
move on...
my x-classmate got engage last weekend. i dun know wat she's thinking but wat the heck???! i mean engage? ring? a wedding soon? 20? absolutely a big no no for me... :p
yuck!
anyhow, it's her body...her soul..and her life...if i can't care enough, then i have to deal with it.


Thursday, February 19, 2004

bikini woman

trianax+listen=Sigur Ros:Svefn-G-Englar
trianax+feeling=sober


so, this is my second attempt doing a vector art.
pretty hard though....full concentration needed.



i'm tryin to make them look better lah.

neweyz, just got back from visitin nisha at ampang puteri. she got a bit teruk when we arrived but ok later.
the family was there, abby was there too and so did ady.

zunu bought us lunch today...KFC.
a farewell treat.
:)

art vector attack 2!!!

trianax+listens=Dido:Life For Rent
trianax+feeling=sober



hey..i'm doin another art vector at the moment...
not done yet..just takin a few min to chill out...my neck hurts.
got headache....arrghhh
but i've to finish the vector thing first..
yesterday i drove to JJ. it was okay. i drove to ampang. but not in town yet..klcc area..

zunu and sally are leaving today. their last day as a practical student. no doubt that sally will be here often after this. :)
we took pictures yesterday, the day before and the next day before that.
just for memorable sake...and maybe friendship thing.

izman taught me few things bout adobe...how to do pattern. that was cool.

btw, nisha is in the hospital..due to her asthma attack .
she's in ampang puteri this morning. at 4 or so.
we're goin to visit her afterwards. poor girl.

so, i'll be back, wit my new art vector.
:p



Wednesday, February 18, 2004

aMy LeE- vector art 1



so, wat u think of my first attempt?
:)
isn't it sumthin cool?

vector art attack!

trianax+listen=none
trianax+feeling=sleepy (i've not enough sleep)


hey ya'll! reza just taught me how to make a vector art and i think it's cool. i mean u can use ur imagination on it, that's not mean that the artwork itself is not using imagination and creativity, but wit vector art, it's more unique as it will turn the pic into sum kind of cartoon/comic style or sumthin.
at the moment i'm tryin to do that on amy lee's face...she got a beautiful feature so i decided to try on her. i tried on joshy's but his face was very much complicated as he got small eyes and all.
:)
so, new progress on my photoshop thing is the vector art lah.
actually i saw it first at painted-reality.net, which happen to be reza's sister's fren blog.
they were nice..i mean the vector art thing. she made it on harry potter's characters and sum on jennifer garner. maybe u should check out the blog.

so, it have been 2 days since we didn't get to connect to the internet.
they fix it just now and it's okay now.
life is pretty much boring without the internet.
i mean whoever think of creating the internet (for any purpose) at the first place is totally a mad genious.
it's not that i 've no life to live on,it's just that internet is another alternative of entertainment.

i'll post the vector art very soon.

obsolete=not useful anymore
monotonous=stayin the same and not changin/boring

Monday, February 16, 2004

trianax+listen=Evanescence:October
trianax+feeling=gloomy(just bkoz the song is so sad....*tears*)
i

t's already 3pm and the internet connection here just got fix by that internet man...and so i guess that's the name :p

neweyz, i had to do this tons of PHP work like i said the other day. dah siap 2. 3 more to go...
:)
vanilla coke is yummy. can't resist it esp when it's cool.
pakcik zainal gave each one of us here a strawberry key-chain. cute...maybe he just wanna be nice to us. the guys said that he got other intention which i'm nearly buy it..but his okay i guess..he bought us lunch the other day...2 times.

sally and zunu finish their practical this thursday. just as i got to know sally more closer, she's already goin. just like miss daisy. she was nice. she gave me gud advises...she just cool.

the flash drive i bought was fine. it was great actually..got to keep mp3s and stuff.
:)

constantly ignoring,the pain consuming me,but this time it's cut too deep,i'll never stray again.

Saturday, February 14, 2004

:)

trianax+feeling=Muse:Endlessly
trianax+feeling=incredibly happy!!!


the reason i'm happy today is bkoz last nite...last nite i went to low yat and bought myself a flash drive.
it's black and slim and transparent and cute and cool...128mg at 145 bucks. quite cheap.
bought it at sri computer....got fren there one...actually 4...she gave me special price.
so, i can go anywhere wit this thing.

last nite my toe didn't itchy at all. got a nice sleep.
but it's itching back this mornin.

i sent mi hermana to skool this mornin at bout 7. yesterday me and mi hermano went to ampang area wit me drivin. he said that i'm gettin confident. like DUH!!!
last time, he said that i tak de bakat...how can drivin need any talent?
now he know wit whom he's dealin wit...hahhaha.

reza gav me more php work to do.well, that is bkoz i ask from him..gatal sangat mulut...see, dah dapat banyak kerje. but still,it's a team work...so kene tolong jugak weather i like it or not...oklah keje tu ,tak lah susah sangat,complicated nak tukar arrays jer.

it's either me got MUSE or u went BLACKOUT

Friday, February 13, 2004

trianax+listen=Flop Poppy:Aku dan Kamu
trianax+feeling=crushed


my toe is swelling,alrite. and it's itchy...i can't sleep last night bkoz of it. damn little bee!
only me and sally at the office at this moment. the rest is gone...
we had our lunch just now and i think the nasi is okay.

tomorrow is v-day and everyone around me already got plans...like wat's wit plans on v-day? screw them :p
i hate to say this but i think ppl are gettin obsess bout v-day. and it seems that luv is not real anymore on that day and so on.
i dun do v-day so i dun care bout tomorrow.
i bet the town will be full of stupid kissess and fuckin promises. and they will be girls holdin bouquet of roses looking as proud as they could be :p
nuff said.
*sigh*

the last time i saw luv was the day he went away

Thursday, February 12, 2004

damn little bee

trianax+listen=Overseer:Supermoves
trianax+feeling=incredibly bored


i've been stung by a bee last night,under my toe.
it hurts like hell. although i've never been there,yet...but it's just hurt like hell.

and now,it look like it gonna swelling in anytime.
i've to go to the office though.

neweys, it's a bit boring today..maybe bkoz wary is not here. yesterday he made us laugh..me especially. he did sum mocking. stupid one yet funny.
:p
i got stomach cramp today. damn crimson wave!
menstrual cramp is just as painful as swallowing wasabi milkshake...




Wednesday, February 11, 2004



wat a breast!
i wonder wat mama jackson had to say?
hmmm....
trianax+listen=Dido:Stoned
trianax+feeling=:)


i'm having this small tiny bug bite at the bottom of my lips and it's ithcy. it's just the 5 of us today at the office. wary is sleeping at sally's desk, dreaming bout his gf perhaps.
now his awake...oh,wait...he continue his sleeping back at his own place. :p

anyhow..life seems a bit boring.
fadhli called just now. talking bout things. actually he is such a nice guy.

lips are turning blue, a kiss that can't renew
i only dream of you, my beautiful

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

trianax+listen=Muse:Falling Away With You
trianax+feeling=cool :)


i think i'm having a fever...coughing and all.
yesterday i went to the JPJ driving test. i pass the test. it was a wonderful feeling i had.
but before that, i got this little butterflies in stomach and my hands were cold,i was a nervous wreck.
i thought i couldn't make the hill section. but it went well.

ashraf couldn't make it actually but the tester was cool...he let him through. and so did fadhli.
so anyways, got job to do rite now..i'll continue later.



Saturday, February 07, 2004

mi amigos

trianax+listen=Evanescence:Forever Gone Forever You
trianax+feeling=usual



this is sum of my frens at college. they're great, different personality though.
hope that we're still contacting each other after we got our diplomas.
:)

everyone is here today except for zunu.
wary is here. doing php! gud progress.

adios!

Thursday, February 05, 2004

trianax+listen=Flop Poppy:Masih
trianax+feeling=great


i'm hungry..haven't take my breakfast,it's almost lunch anyways..
i'm goin out wit abby today, she's here at the office wit us. she's a nice girl, very sweet.
why i'm talkin bout her?

neweys, i saw dia at college this morning.
i smile at him and he kinda smile back! i was in the elevator for god's sake and he was outside.
sweet smile, nice one, the one that u'll only get when u like sumone :)

so, i'm gonna take MUET this april....uh, and i just join friendster...i have no idea that it has so much fun. ita urged me to join before but i thought it was sumthin useless.
azim still in london, comin home this july for his holiday.
did i mentioned nicky's a prefect now? i just couldn't believe that my once cute little baby brother is now in standard 3 and a prefect.
his movie comin out soon. i wonder wat he looks like on big screen :)

so,adios for now, i'm gonna get ice cream afterward...

Wednesday, February 04, 2004

trianax+listen=Muse:Time Is Running Out
trianax+feeling=intoxicated


i went back to my dad's hometown in kajang last sunday...celebrating the aidiladha.
met my long lost cousins,aunts etc. my grandma was there as well.
as i entered the house (my aunt house) another aunt whom i called mak lang introduced me to her cousins, i think. i was walkin and she was "ni lah anak abang dan". n i had to smile n salam, if not they might say i'm rude. then, as i was talkin to a cousin, another relative arrive and i'd been introduced just as the first one.
when we went to my late grandpa's sister house,they asked our mothers who were we (me n my cousins lah)then, each mother said "ni anak gee, tu anak ena ...." but before my mom could say a word, i said "anak hamdan"..khakhkahkahkh :)
my sis laugh out as she could roll on the floor.

it's like every balik kampung time, every eldest relatives would ask who were we even if we've been introduced before....it's like it's slip out of their mind or sumthin.
so, anyways, i had a great aidiladha. found out that my cous learn to play the guitar and listen to Muse as well. we just need a drummer so that we can form a band called The Rock Chicks :P
and another cous had gone through her puberty. and i found out that the other cous whom currently study in London had a part time job at the arsenal stadium...that way, he dun have to pay 30 bucks to watch football. :)

so, as time went by on sunday evening, we went home.
while waiting for my mom to finish up chatting wit my aunts, i sat on the swing wit my wan (granny).
we just sat there and talk .
it was a perfect evening to end up wit.

Saturday, January 31, 2004

trianax+listen=Tool:H
trianax+feeling=fine



i wish all the muslims in the world a SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!!!

Friday, January 30, 2004

bout a fren

trianax+listens=none
trianax+feeling=fine


there's a fren of mine (preferred to be anonymous) who got this thing goin on her.
she has a guy fren...to her his not cute and he even not her type. but, she said, there's just sumthin that can bond them together.it's just like as much as she hate to admit it but they're just the same in a way.
he made her laugh and sumtimes he made her mad.
and he didn't even know it..i think i know dat situation where guys like to ignore all those little sensitive stuff.
so, anyways, sumtimes she thought dat he's even flirting wit her.

sumtimes wen she got all xcited and happy bout the way he treated her, suddenly she feel solemn back as she realize the truth.
so,there's this time when he chatted wit her and at the same time he's tryin to flirt wit another girl.
she saw it and she hate him.
there's time when she hated him and thought that he was tryin to get to her because of sumthin that he want eg:help him to get to know a girl and stuff like dat.

she said to me that she like him as frens does.
so, wat's the problem here? i dun even know.
maybe, she just dun like to be treated that way or maybe she really likes him.

i have one of my guy fren acted like that too and i think i know wat 'my fren' really feels.

freezing,freezing

trianax+listens=Sigur Ros:Svefn-G-Englar
trianax+feeling=not well


i'm still freezing like snow queen. except that snow queen can always handle this situation because she lives in an ice cold place. i live in kuala lumpur where the weather always warm and nice.but lately it's been rainin all day long and i couldn't stand it. my spine is hurt..maybe its the wind which had been caused by this weather.
i had to ask my bro to send me my sweater.well, he grumbled though.

at last,i managed to finish up my PHP work on time.
i'm a gud girl!
nuthin much for today....had nasi for lunch.owh, and got drivin class this evening lah...i almost forgot.
the JPJ test had been postponed to 9th Feb and i'm still not sure if i can make it or not. i mean, i can move the wheel, but the hill part is complicated...finger cross,still.




trianax+listens=Avril Lavigne:Complicated
trianax+feeling=not well


it's 25 degrees outside and i'm gettin cold inside the office. the aircond is too cold and i dun feel well today.
got flu, my hands are frezing and my nose is runny.
how on earth kak lub can stand this condition?
my legs are gettin cramp...gosh...i need a nice hot bath rite now. or just throw me in warm and thick blankets.

sally's presentation is today and she has to go to PJ to do it.

i went to Tang's closing down sale yesterday and i got few items to take home. pretty cheap. got cute little pink bag,some Island Shop stuff.
there's sum renoma shoes on sale to, at bout 30-100 bucks per pair. and my sis went nuts bout it, she was like running to the renoma's corner and scream "where's the 30 bucks shoe...show me dammit!!!!"
her obsession towards renoma started when she won herself a 150 bucks voucher. and guess wat she bought with dat voucher...a black stiletto! like she ever gonna wear it to the mall..as if!
and now, the stiletto's restin rite under her bed.

so,neweyz...i got to finish up my PHP work.
and it's still damn freezing here.

Thursday, January 29, 2004

trianax+listens=Sigur Ros:Agaetis Byrjun
trianax+feeling=ordinary feeling


today...well,well...wat can i say bout today.
zunu's lecturer came and she had to present her project...she did it well. bravo!

sally in the other hand was a bit tension because her lecturer didn't show his face at all..and now it's already 4.40pm. i dun think he ever gonna come today. poor sally. she had all prepared but too bad he's not coming. maybe sum miscommunication perhaps.
and zita quiet relax for today because her lecturer adjurn their scheduele for the presentation to next week,well, thanx to izman (i guess) who dun show up for the past few days.

anyways,

as for warey, as usual, he skip the day off.i dunno wat is actually wrong wit dat guy...sumtimes he came to office early in the mornin and dissapear during 10am and above. despite of all the things, he actually finish his work up on time...

and reza... wat can i say bout him today..maybe his not himself for today, a bit hyper....jumpin all around and laugh on serious matters...hahahahha....i do think (on my humble opinion) that he's lack of caffeine. well, he didn't take his breakfast and skip his lunch. usually he had coffee (hot or cold) during both times. and i know caffeine would make ppl get hyper actually, but, in this case, his actually addicted to it and maybe the method kinda vice versa wit his body system. i dunno...that's wat i think.

and for kak lup, she's gettin better than yesterday. she couldn't take any kind of pills for her headache though.

and me...i'm xcited wit my brand new pc. :)
i'm a lucky girl alive!!!!!

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

finally, people

trianax+listen=Justin:Senorita
trianax+feeling=great ++

how i've been nagging and complaining bout the pc i used...finally people, 'da boss' give me a new pc.
i can't even do my work on the old pc and reza wan us to finish them up by this week..
it's MIMOS. all of them are new xcept for the monitor which reza took mine and gav me his. well, i dun mind and dun care, as long as the cpu workin well.

so, i'm goin home alone today, kak lup had a headache and she coudn't stand it anymore hence she went home.
as for me, i'm still stuck in this office, tryin to download program files, mp3s etc to my new pc..well, i'm not complainin though.

:)

trianax+listens=OAG:Satelite Ink
trianax+feeling=:)



his name is adam. i think his kinda cute..

this is sorfina and i think she's the most adorable baby girl in the world!

this is iman but i called her manka. ain't she's a cutie?

Tuesday, January 27, 2004

A Blog is A Blog

trianax+listen=none
trianax+feeling=boring and a bit angry(i need a new computer!!!!!)


so, hi again...do u know dat blog or sum may called online journal is actually a diary (i know sum of u may groan "duh!"). the difference is it's online ("duh!" once again).btw, for those who still clueless where is the blog word come out from, well, the root word is actually weblog (a big DUH!!)
i've came across an article few years back bout this girl started an online journal and the mother found out and the mother was a bit confused that she had to ask this to her daughter "u dun let me read ur diary but instead u let thousands of strangers out there reading it"
well, mommy....that's the idea..they are strangers,they dun know me, i dun know them...correct not?

so, like me...i'll be glad that you (yes...u....the one who are reading this rite now) are actually lookin forward for my blog...u know, to know wat i've been up to,or just wanna see wat happen around me lately...etc..but if mi mama find out bout this blog and read them, i'll be like hands in the air and run for my life. shame lah...malu man!

so, the point is...there's a fren of mine, better known as reza or goes wit his alter-ego named cyphereza, found out bout my blog. i dunno when and how he did find out bout my blog. i was like, "u know ah?"....alamak...a bit shy lah to write down things wit him knowin everythin...
but, like rite now, i'm thinkin this two words in my mind: WHO CARES!
it's kinda cool though.... :)

peace brother!

Monday, January 26, 2004

trianax+listen=Tool:Forty Six and Two
trianax+feeling=confuse


it's already 4.45 and i'm goin home.
today is a bit boring maybe because the absent of sum of my frens here in the office.Zuazwary was always tryin to skip the day off and i dunno wat he's doin at home. Zita on the other hand always has this stomach ache goin on her.

so, catch u readers again tomorrow..

"listen to my muscle memory,contemplate what i've been clinging to, forty six and two ahead of me"

Dating!!!

it's not bout dia..but it's bout another guy that i've known through my best fren,Ira. His name is Saari and he's been like frens wit me for a year and now he asked me on a date.
it's been a while since i'm dating anyone and i feel afraid. i dunno why but i dun think dating is one good option to continue our so called friendship. when i broke up wit my previous boyfren, we didn't stay as frens although i would luv too, he just disappear and i'd lost him as fren too...and i dun wan this beautiful friendship turn into an ugly pieces of hatred and such like i've been through before.

But he insist that we should try.
but what if the whole dating thing started to go into different way of direction?
i like him as a fren.

Anyways, i'm at the office at the moment...oh, and i dun have internet connection at home and i'm too lazy to go to the cybercafe to update my blog so you'll find me missing if it's holiday festive here or just simply on saturday and sunday.
so, where was i?
yeah...the dating thing. maybe i should try huh...maybe it's not that bad like i've thought.
because life is too short for me to ignore things that might become special to me sumday.

how's that for a motivation?
:)