Monday, May 22, 2006

ITS HARD TO SAY GOODBYE TO YESTERDAY

a good fren said, "kalau tgh sedeh, sume lagu sedeh masuk dlm jiwa kalbu"..i think its true..

kenape kan, perlu ada perpisahan, setelah terjadinya pertemuan..kenape perlu ada kesakitan, setelah kita merasa kebahagiaan, kenape kan perlu kita mengalir kan air mata, setelah kita sebelum ini tak pernah terasa untuk menangis.
its not that i feel bored, neither feeling hatred..in fact, the feeling is still there.
kalau nak ditunding jari, sape yang bersalah sebenarnya, it is me.
i ended it.i hurt someone's heart..i'm not proud of what i've done..i feel sad..but i need to do it.

dia tanye,"kalau dah tau begitu, kenape perlu mulakan?" i was speechless..i have no answer for that. i looked away.

as much as what he felt, that much i stumbled for hurting him.
i apologize so many times..i didn't mean to hurt him..

for so many reasons...

it may be over, but i still care.
i know, i'm doing the right thing..
Everything

hello guys..sorry that i haven't post anything for a long time..i was super duper buzy with course work..

there's so many things i did for this semester..shooting for video clip,a web portal, two pieces of illustration board size self potrait, a 12 inch sculpture, an A2 size or research book, an A4 size of skething book with i can only made for 50 pages je..
as for sculpture, im glad that mine was finally being put on the table..you guys have no idea wat the table means..it means proudness...hahahhah
mine and ellys...we made it to the table..haha...

everything was impossible at first, but i made it anyways..yayy..
i had fun doing all the final projects, although it was really really stressful at first.

i gained weight, acne on my face, mentally down and tired..dats we ate...we ate and ate..until we gained weight..hahah...

my friends help me a lot..esp those who close to me..you guys know who you are..
we gonna lives our separate ways afterwards..doing our majoring..its like, we're not gonna be together anymore,too bad..we gonna be really really busy..
i hope we'll fine time for us. hmmm...

i had finished my sophomore year..let me take the second year by storm..hahahha..
im looking forward..really..

ill see you guys soon..MMU the best! muuahhhh....
Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.